I am a new woman
Since I’ve last blogged, I have gotten a new job, moved to a new house and done some much needed sole searching.
Josh has purchased a motorcycle and joined me in living a healthier lifestyle. We do a mile walk/run each night and are more aware of what we are eating.
Further, we are the only married couple our age not having children. I’m okay with it, though because I don’t feel like I am ready. I have been around children my whole life so, it would be very familiar to me…I just don’t think it’s for us right now.
I also have a grandma on her deathbed. And a father who is obviously having a hard time dealing with it. No matter how much you prepare for something like this, you will never be ready for it. My grandma has asked for death- she has made us aware that she is ready. And why wouldn’t she be? She had lost control of almost every aspect of her life, including those we equate with humbleness and pride. She also believes in heaven and reuniting with her lost loved ones and husband. So, as my friend Jelane pointed out- it is OUR selfishness that won’t allow her to move on. We ask her not to say those things. We ask her to keep eating, keep taking her meds, keep on living a less than quality life. Something to think about.
Hmmm….lots of things going on.
More later
